I Want to Die…

I want to die.

As in, right now.

I want the earth to swallow me up.

Or probably, be hit my a fast 18-wheeler truck.

Or maybe, I’ll just cut my wrist and let blood gush out from my artery.

I don’t know what you have against me.

I’m so busy with school, Kule, and other stuff.

And here one afternoon, may nabasa akong di kanais-nais.

What do you want from me?

Do you want me to kill myself in front of you?

Ano ba gusto mo mangyari?

What would make you stop pestering me?

What would make you STOP? You are trying to destroy my life.

Sorry. BECAUSE I WON’T LET YOU DESTROY MY PRECIOUS GOD-GIVEN LIFE.

If you really think that I’m that kind of person, then say it in front of my face and don’t tell the whole world that first. Why can’t you say it to my face?

Kung gusto nyo kong sirain by words. Fine. Gawin nyo lahat ng gusto nyong gawin at sabihin. Kung yan lang ang ikatatahimik nyo. Basta, isipin nyo na lang kung magiging masaya talaga kayo sa ginagawa nyo. Magiging proud ba kayo sa ginawa nyong yan kay God pag nasa huling hantungan ka na? Isipin mo muna kung magiging masaya ka talaga bago mo gawin. Dahil tinitiyak ko, yang puso at isip mo ay nabubulok na ngayon sa mga mga masasamang sinasabi mo.